Sunday, March 22, 2009

Mrs. Mommy aka Ashley Marie Haydu

I can't lie and say I haven't thought about it. What would my life be like if I wasn't married and a mother?
And then she said something that slapped me. I said something about already being married, and she said something so simple but it shook my world. "You're still young." So simple. Still young, like, I have time to get out? Like there are still so many years ahead that things are bound to change? I didn't jump to any defenses either. I just thought about it as I took another drink of my wine and looked around the room at the different people living there lives in different stages. What would it be like to be in those stages today?
THEN, it hit me! Why should I even consider my life without Brandon and Aiden. I am 100% confident that even if I had waited, if I had said no to a life-long commitment to Brandon and then no to the effort of having a child...I would still be searching to find them. To make it happen one day. I am extremely lucky actually to have been able to find them and be living these moments with them. If I had said no, would I be as lucky to have found a man that would be more perfect for me than Brandon? Or a child that time brought so perfectly into the world?
No way.


Robin, The Girl Wonder said...

Ok so you successfully made me cry. Thanks. You know, you are just perfect the way you are.

Yellow Rose said...

I can't imagine our life without you and Aiden either.