my excuse:

Ashley Haydu: i can't decide if i like having a life or not
Sarah Strader: lol
Sarah Strader: why?
Ashley Haydu: my typical day is so long
Ashley Haydu: 8:00 to 6:00 I work
Ashley Haydu: 6:00 to 8:00 I eat, see Aiden, talk to Brandon, and possibly clean
Sarah Strader: lol @ possibly clean
Ashley Haydu: from 8 until I sleep I work on Etsy sites & Since When project orders (taking off by the way)
Ashley Haydu: sometimes I get to post a blog
Sarah Strader: sweet!
Ashley Haydu: then if I am lucky I can leave and go to the shop and work with Milena on MORE sideprojects
Ashley Haydu: there are now 3 totes
Ashley Haydu: not to mention, I now force myself to have a social life
Ashley Haydu: it's my way of giving back to myself
Sarah Strader: lol force?
Ashley Haydu: yeah, I feel super guilty about it!

Sheeees Baaaaack

the dreamy look in my eyes says it all well

For the next few weeks she will be a heavy topic on this site.

There will be only few instances of her presence. Like a dream she will arrive. Then Leave.

Outfit of Today

You could say 'beginning' and 'end' of day here. I can't stand sleeves around my wrists so it's only a matter of time that any sleeves be pushed up to my elbows. I think this look kinda likens a baby doll. As in dollhouse. It probably doesn't help that today I wrote a homeowners policy that was a 900 square foot house that looked like a dollhouse. It was fantastic. I wanted to pick it up, move it to the middle of some sand bar and invite Sarah to live with me forever.

This is the view from my keyboard. A view that has now made it's way into my dreams at night. Sarah mailed me this shot of her in front of the Golden Gate Bridge. Sometimes I find myself sitting at my desk talking to this picture as if it were that easy to pretend we were at Los Primos gossiping. And since I don't like to be that strange or have someone catch me talking to myself, I pick up the phone and text message her. My husband is gonna flip when he gets the cell phone bill. Robby, I bet you freakin love the GREEN wood panelling don't you? DON'T YOU?

One of those days...I want my BLLFF

Me: "Is it bad that I don't want to be around anyone?"

Sarah: "Lol, no, it's called self preservation usually but in this case its just a safety precaution so you won't kill someone."

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*I took liberties in correcting the spelling. I just couldn't type it the same way. ha!

Dooce Blog:

Carol: "Go tell the Internet, 'Thank you.' They were a huge help. Love, your best friend, Carol."

Me(Dooce): "Because it's 1860 and we're sending letters to each other via the Pony Express."

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This sort of reminds me of a letter I received yesterday in the mail from Sarah. Funny how things happen like that!

Chain of Command

firework, originally uploaded by amdefoor.

This picture makes me think. And when I think, my mind wanders and creates truths that only make sense to me. You see this girl in the white? Her name is Sarah. I love Sarah. I am to her left. See the boy? Matthew. He is to her right.

This is the way things have become. I wonder if it speaks truth. I .think. that the public eye creates an order where people are placed within a 'chain of command' so to speak and then rearranged as necessary when the opportunity presents itself.

I think that this logic is why this photo is one of my favorites.