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In case you haven't heard: SHOP of the WEEKend!

FILTHY MAGIC

I was thoroughly impressed today when I came across this website. Although I can't quite speak for the quality of the clothing yet, I am still rather surprised by the price point! I certainly know how I'll be (dreaming of) spending part of my paycheck this weekend. Help me decide:

Bloom Skirt $60

Andy Type Striped Dress $30

Bow Tie Booties $62.50

Studded Duffle $84

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

-Marilyn Monroe

reblogged from CityyandColour

"Word."

Cavortress Part 3

 

 

 

 

So we all know now how I ended up backstage at the Cavortress Fashion Show on March 12. Now for how I felt being backstage at the Cavortress Fashion Show. For starters, I was so nervous that I completely misread the schedule for the show and towed Lori and Robin downstairs to the hotel lobby with me at 2:00 PM sharp... only to find out that I wasn't supposed to be down there until 5:30. Ugh. That gave us ample time though for me to practice practice practice not falling on my face in heels that were 1 1/2 sizes too big! (That's a whole 'nother story!) After we finally began, I met some amazing people. One of my favorites was Amy Chadwell (the blonde in the second photo from the bottom). Besides having the most kick-ass haircut of anyone I've ever met, she was the nicest person to me. The only of the models to make an effort to chit chat with me. Hey, that's all I'm asking for. Just a little love to calm my nerves! The other girls were nice and very polite though! Anyway, I also met Austin Nelson, the photographer responsible for some of these photos (save for the first 5 black & white ones taken of me backstage by Robin!). He was SO nice and fun to talk to that he made me feel as though I had a local friend there the whole time. 

I was so beside myself nervous. I was one of 2 or 3 girls (out of 15) that were completely new to the whole runway thing. I was shorter, tattooed, and def more awkwardly outgoing (atleast it seemed that way) than the other girls. I have to say that I am proud of myself that I was able to be surrounded by 25ish complete strangers and not throw my guts up. I remember so little. I remember standing in line for a final check and looking around the room and seeing the other girls and thinking "Oh my God. This is real. This is about to happen. For real." And then hearing things like, "HEY GIRLS! This place is packed! There's hundreds of people out there." and "Okay, when you turn the corner, they have a spot light that is blinding. Just look forward and walk!." and "GIRLS, REMEMBER TO WALK SLOWLY." and and and so many directions and so much more. I turned the corner, took a deep breath, tried my damndest not to squint at that RIDICULOUSLY bright spot light and walk. s l o w l y . I honestly, don't remember a thing except for the light (I wondered if that's what death feels like) until I got to the end and was like, "Oh! Pose, dammit!" to myself. Then step, step (there were two steps we had to walk down and then "Pose. Again. Man, that guy is really close. I'm only posing for like this row of people standing in front of me. Who cares, keep walking." Then up the ramp and wait wait wait and then here we go again, back to the room, through the crowd that I can SEE this time. The room was so strange walking back into it. I just spent 4 hours in there but all of a sudden it felt lighter. As the girls walked in one by one from the runway everyone cheered and clapped and smiled and it was fantastic. I wish I would have had a camera for that part.

Check out the show here: YouTube

This was one of the best moments of my life. I am sure that we can all look back and remember people who made such a big HUGE influence that they actually CHANGED our lives. For me, it was Michelle Wood (left). She came into my life when I was 17 and offered me an existence all to myself. Something that wasn’t already created for me, something I could take and have and make my own. I met her for 2 hours (if that), spoke to her over a period of 3 weeks and then with no expectations of ever meeting her again, happened to bump into her 8 years later thanks to fashion designer Julie Wheat (right). Even though the original opportunity (modeling forrealsies with the support of Ford Modeling Agency) just having the chance to be so close to that dream gave me confidence to chase others. For that, I owe her so many of my yesterdays.

I'm cheesing through tears.

I'm sleepy, bored, stressed and a LOT freaked out about tomorrow.

Found some new words I absolutely ADORE. In every since of the explanation they speak to me. Ladies and Gents, I present to you, my next tattoo. Just... where should I put it? Calf? Stomach? Officially in love:

I should not be.

honestly?...

this is how I feel most nights. Especially when I'm entertaining.

Wanna know a secret? I am never  more self conscious as when I am about to be surrounded by a group of people about to have fun. The idea of letting everyone down consumes me most nights and I just can't take the pressure. 

 

 

 

via KnightCat (of course)

This has to be one of my favorite runway shows since I first laid eyes on Alexander McQueen.

KnightCat said it best; "HIGHLY STRUCTURED DRESSES, GREASED HAIR, VAMPY RED LIPS, AND SKY HIGH SKELETALHEELS: EVERYTHING ABOUT THE COLLECTION IS APPEALING IN ALL THE MOST FABULOUSLY SADOMASOCHISTIC WAYS."

DSQUARED2

I want my hair to be this color. Not so much blonde, but white. No yellow whatsoever.

(via girlsintrees)

Cavortress Part 1 & 2

Part 1: Am I Dreaming?

Oh. My. Goooooood. God. 

I was chosen to be in the Cavortress Fashion Show as a runway model! I can not believe it. I'm so excited. There is no sense to be made of my brain. Just words. Lots of babbling. Like now. Holy crap!? Can you believe it!?

I'm extremely lucky.

Part 2: If only I had a picture.

Robin, I can't believe that we didn't take one single picture. So Part 2 is where Robin and I get into my car at 3:30 PM on Monday March 1 and drive our happy little asses all the way to Charleston, 4 hours away. I went to meet Julie (the Cavortress owner/designer) and try on her line of clothing to see which she would have me wear in the show. I was flattered to death to get to put on each outfit. As it turns out, Julie is freakin amazing and is helping set me up with a few photographers in Charleston (that I might be shooting with next week) and maybe even an agency. She was atleast nice enough to forward my information. What a dollface, eh?! It's nice to have strangers like you.

Anyway, I want to give an especially huge HUG and KISS to Robin for being freakin fantastic and keeping me company on our long ass journey to and fro Charleston. You'll be the first I call every time.

xoxo

Photoshoot Inspiration

holy wow.puhleeeease????

I can not wait to own this.

by ouma

I MUST OWN THESE

HERE

I think it is a testament of my youth that this is my motto.

Jon Ruby Photoshoot

 

 

copyright Jon Ruby

What an amazing opportunity. My first response to a casting call was fantastic. I hope I'm this lucky all of time! I met Jon Ruby in Atlanta at his apartment where his friend showed up to PAINT ON ME. His friend CINCO (alias, duh) is actually an accomplished graffiti artist in Atlanta, GA who has been doing some body painting lately. Anyway, I spent at least 2 hours lying in the couch while he drew on me! Brandon and I still think back to it as a dream. The situation was so unreal to us having never really experienced meetings like these before. We sat (well, they sat) and chatted (both guys are ridiculously pleasant to be around. would love to be great friends with either) and watched Food Network's live replay of Man vs Food The 48 oz Steak. Afterwards, we drove to this amazing location and shot the above photos. I had a really good time and feel as though I gained a butt load of experience. Jon was extremeley professional, and my favorite kind of photographer, the kind that act as a director. He was able to get such amazing shots because he knew exactly what I needed to tweek in my stance to get the best pose. ***SOAPBOX WARNING I hate it when photographers leave everything up to the model as far as how to make the shot look good. Why? I can only do so much, AND I CAN'T SEE WHAT YOU SEE! I def appreciate the direction!*** Anyway, I love these pictures the most because they make me think that maybe I can do this. I'm no supermodel, but I can definitely get away with doing some alternative modeling as a hobby!

BTW: Can you read the word? I heard that a sign of a good graffiti artist is one whose writing is less legible and more artistic. In that case, I think he's amazing bc I know what it says and still can't read it. :)

Shop Hearts & Anchors

go here and buy me this

I'm not sure how many of you know but I had a print designed by Sarah at Hearts & Anchors for Aiden's 2nd birthday. I also have purchased her Birthday Squid for myself one year! I have not be disappointed with her amazing work! She's an artist definitely worth the investment! You'll love to look at it every day!

Yay or Nay

via ASOS

I'm seriously considering buying this dress and then creating a themed party just to wear it to.

Although, I've stopped myself twice today from just buying it. I think because I'm afraid that it won't fit. They only have a size 8. But that's a UK 8. I am a 3/4. I read online somewhere that UK sizes run 1-2 sizes bigger than Americas sizing. What do you think?! Should I chance it?

Holy Wow.

So I didn't think that I would get such amazing response from restarting my fave hobby: modeling. It's always been a dream of mine, ever since the dream/opportunity was snatched from my grasp at 17. I'm really thrilled that I've had the opportunity to work with such amazing photographers (photogs-slang...WOW!). I'm even more siked that I'll soon have the chance to work with more amazing photogs in the near future! My schedule is getting booked and I'm moving fast and furiously to achieve. I'll need all of your wishes and hopes! Not to mention positive reinforcement!

Previous:

Robin Thompson
Jon Ruby
Grant Beecher Photography
Dave M Photography

Future:

Bodhi Tree Photography
Dane Darden
M2 Photography Studios

And hopefully in the NEAR future:

Eric Delaforce
Cavortress -runway (yikes!)

NEXT DIY

via shimmer and fade

I must make this tank top. If I could figure out what the hell the skirt was made of, I'd remake this entire outfit.

amazing

OK, exactly what she said... about the outfit, missed opportunity, and especially the shoulder pads.

I have just been giving some of the most amazing jackets from a good friends mother that have shoulder pads in them. Although I've kind of come to love the bulk, I can't seem to sike myself up enough to wear them out into public without removing the should pads!

fave color palette, ever

I love everything about this photo. The colors I love the most. I think I've been actually been painting my eyelids with these colors for the past few weeks... purple and pink with a small brush of grey over the entire lid. I want to keep the walls in my living room grey, and redesign the entire space around the color palette (sp?). Actually, I must. So I will!

some day over the rainbow...

via This is Glamorous

I have decided that I would like to own a different fragrance for every mood that consumes me. I want a fragrance that will change my mind. I want a fragrance that will inspire me. I want a fragrance that will flaunt, love, remind, and remember. I want a fragrance that smells like the word smitten tastes.

i want to go to there

via apartmenttherapy

My happy place for today and tomorrow and all of January and February of next year.

I am seriously considering painting our storage building this color. Any thoughts?

Happy 1/2 Birthday Wish List

here

I realize that my 1/2 Birthday is 159 days away, but when it gets here, this is what I would like to own. If you start now, you can save $.32 a day and become my favorite person. Not that buying me things determines the order of my favorite people, it's just that buying me things helps determine the order of my favorite people. *I am, however, by no means that shallow. All of my favorite people know that.

Tonight is the NITE

via Vogue Brazil Feb '10

I have never before fallen in love with a magazine spread like I have this one. I absolutely love every single aspect about it. I think because when I dream of myself, this is what I see. If I were to become that rock star wife I've been chasing, I would look like this on all my days off and all my days on.

Tonight is the NITE that I will wear jeans and a tshirt, together, for the very first time. I know, I know, no big deal right? If only it were so! My # 2 fashion rule: NO JEANS AND TSHIRTS IN PUBLIC. It just looks wrong on me. But maybe that is because my Grammy never ever would have dared allow me to leave the house on to leave the house for a 'nite out' wearing such uncomely attire. But you know what? This? This is pretty. And I love it.

I'm so nervous.

 

 

 

via letters to dead people